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Navigating Your Birthday When It Wasn't Acknowledged as a Child

Birthdays are supposed to be joyous occasions, filled with laughter, love, and celebration. For most of us, they represent a time when we feel special, surrounded by friends and family who appreciate our existence. However, if your birthday wasn't acknowledged or was traumatic during your childhood, it can leave lasting emotional scars that affect your ability to enjoy this day as an adult. In this blog post, we will explore how to celebrate and cope with your birthday when it brings up painful memories from the past.


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Do you struggle with Birthday Blues?


Signs of birthday depression can vary from person to person, but common indicators may include:

  1. Mood Swings: Frequent and intense mood swings leading up to or on your actual birthday date.

  2. Feelings of Loneliness: A sense of loneliness or isolation, especially if you feel that you lack close friends or family to celebrate with.

  3. Sadness or Tearfulness: Crying spells, feeling down, or an overall sense of sadness.

  4. Anxiety: Increased anxiety or nervousness as the birthday approaches, possibly related to expectations or social gatherings.

  5. Negative Self-Reflection: Increased self-criticism, self-doubt, or feelings of inadequacy, particularly related to achievements and milestones by a certain age.

  6. Withdrawal: A desire to withdraw from social interactions or cancel birthday plans.

  7. Physical Symptoms: Experiencing physical symptoms such as headaches, stomachaches, or fatigue due to stress and anxiety.

  8. Loss of Interest: A sudden loss of interest in birthday-related activities or in celebrating one's own birthday.

  9. Increased Substance Use: An increase in alcohol or substance use as a coping mechanism.

  10. Difficulty Sleeping: Trouble falling asleep or staying asleep in the days leading up to the birthday.

  11. Comparison to Others: Excessive comparison to others' birthdays or achievements, leading to feelings of inadequacy.

  12. Loss or Grief: For some, birthdays can be a reminder of loss or past traumas such as a history of family drama on birthdays during childhood, which can exacerbate depressive symptoms.


Acknowledge Your Feelings and Understand they are Valid


Before diving into the celebration or healing process, it's crucial to acknowledge your feelings. Your birthday might bring up sadness, anger, or disappointment due to your childhood experiences. That's entirely valid, and it's essential to give yourself permission to feel these emotions. Recognising and accepting your feelings is the first step towards healing.


If your past experiences with birthdays have left deep emotional wounds, consider seeking the support of a therapist or counsellor. They can help you explore and process these feelings, providing guidance on how to heal and move forward. Therapy can be a safe space to discuss your childhood trauma and develop coping strategies.


One way to begin healing is to reframe your perspective on birthdays. Instead of associating them solely with painful memories, try to view your birthday as an opportunity for personal growth and self-care. It's a day to celebrate yourself, regardless of how others treated you in the past.


As an adult, it's essential to set realistic expectations for your birthday. Understand that not everyone may remember your special day or express their love in the way you hope. Try not to rely on others for validation or happiness. Instead, focus on what you can do to make the day meaningful for yourself.


“When we try to avoid the emotions, we may be increasing the intensity of the emotion and we will continue to feel it until we process it.”

Self-Care and Self-Love


One of the most powerful ways to celebrate your birthday when it wasn't acknowledged as a child is through self-care and self-love. Consider these ideas:

  1. Treat Yourself: Buy a special gift, go to your favourite restaurant, or indulge in a spa day. Pampering yourself can be a meaningful way to create positive memories associated with your birthday. Treat yourself just in the same way you would a close friend on their birthday.

  2. Reflect and Set Goals: Use your birthday as a time for self-reflection. What have you accomplished in the past year, and what are your goals for the year ahead? Setting intentions can give your birthday a sense of purpose.

  3. Surround Yourself with Positive People: Spend your day with friends and loved ones who appreciate you. Choose those who bring positivity and joy into your life.

  4. Volunteer or Give Back: Sometimes, the act of helping others can bring a sense of fulfillment and purpose to your birthday. Consider volunteering or supporting a cause that's meaningful to you.

  5. Write yourself a Letter: Write a letter to yourself, remind yourself who you are, acknowledge the feelings that the child within you is maybe feeling and never had the ability to process (grief, sadness, disappointment, rejection etc), remind yourself how you deserve to be treated and what you are worthy of and how you can now control how you celebrate and spend your birthday whereas in the past you didn't have this power.

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If the idea of celebrating your birthday in a traditional way is triggering, create new, personal traditions that align with your interests and values. It could be a solo hike, a weekend getaway, a painting session, or anything that brings you happiness. Building your own traditions can help you to rewrite your past story and reclaim your birthday for the future as a positive and meaningful event.


Healing from the pain of unacknowledged or traumatic birthdays as a child takes time and involves a lot of self-compassion. Remember that your worth is not determined by how others treated you in the past. By acknowledging your feelings, seeking professional support when necessary, reframing your perspective, and focusing on self-care and self-love, you can learn to celebrate your birthday in a way that brings healing and happiness into your life. Your birthday can become a symbol of your strength and resilience, reminding you of the love and appreciation you have for yourself.


If you are struggling and would like to explore this topic in therapy to overcome the difficulty you have in navigating and acknowledging your birthday, you can reach out for support.


Taking the first step towards therapy can be daunting, but remember, it's also an act of self-care and courage. The Flawed Journey provides a FREE 30 Minute Consultation which can be the first step of the journey towards healing, understanding, and self-discovery.

If you need 24/7 mental health support right now, please check out 24/7 support helplines here and call a support service near you. If you think your life or someone else’s is at immediate risk, call your local emergency services.



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